1/16/2013

1.  Cut 46 times today
2. Smoked two cigarettes.
3. Ate 3 carrots, and some salad once in the past three days.
4. Had finals last week,most stressful shit ever.
5. Had an anxiety attack, threw up four times and fainted once.
6. My lungs hurt (no wonder).
7. I miss Nick and wish he lived here.
8. My friend is turning in to a psychotic psychopath who believes werewolves, vampires, and witches exist.
9. My nose is like clogged up.
10. My throat hurts.
11. I feel achy and dizzy all the time.
12. Its 12:53 and I'm still up.
13. I wish I was pretty.
14. I am still wondering if anyone truly cares about me.
15. I don't want to go to school.

FML.

1/15/2013

2:25 in the fucking morning...

and I'm still awake, doing what you might ask? Skyping. Whom you may ask? My best friend Becca Fuckner xD I'm kidding it's Faulkner. We've been talking about the randomest shit for three hours. We're both tired but we can't sleep hahaha fuck anxiety/depression. Anywho, I had an okay day today I walked around in Walmart and bought some new shampoo YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!! Then facetimed Nick til his stupid mother shut off the wifi. Meh lol I've only cut like 6 times in the last week and a half(: All thanks to two very important people in my life Nick Sherer and Becca Faulkner. These two kidds are my life and without them I would be lost, alone, and dead. I mean they help me through everything and not to mention Becca gets me cigarettes (BOW TO THE FUCKING WOW) Meh Im so addicted to tumblr it's like a serious problem... is there such a thing as like tumblression like an obession with tumblr? Meow. Anyway Ima stop randomly typing shit and get talking to Bex now.... good night MORNING mooothafooters (; Larve yo' faces and fuck yo' mamas.... <3