7/28/2013

Life is really boring. I miss Nick a lot. He is on a cruise for a few days, so I've been pretty bored and depressed. Played Chicken Smoothie a lot though (if any of you play send me a pm or trade at Emo Tragedy), and was on Instagram and Kik. If anyone of you want to talk to me don't hesitate c: my username is brutalmeows on both Kik and Instagram. My link to my instagram is below:

http://instagram.com/brutalmeows#

Anyways, thats about it. I'm going to start reading and drawing again, and I don't have work tomorrow!!!! YAY!

Thats me. I'm wearing a OMAM shirt <3 I love them, love metal in general actually music for the most part lol. I'm sorry I'm blabbering on about nothing, I'm stupid. Anyway going to go draw and read over and out <3

7/25/2013

Haven't updated in a long time:

A few weeks ago things took a turn for the worst. Nick and me had our worst fight ever, it lasted a week or so, and was the worse thing imaginable. He said he had found someone else, and that I should get over him, I begged him to take me back and he wouldn't. His reason was justified, although he still feels like he was being a dick. I was a mess that week, I cried constantly; everywhere. I cried at Walmart, shopping, dinner, before going to bed, when I showered, when I talked to Nick, at work, at home, so it was really bad. I had to schedule a therapy appointment early because the night before I tried to kill myself. I slit my wrist, and still have a huge blood stain in my mattress. I was sick for the next two days from loss of blood. Anyway we are good now and that is all that matters <3


The summer overall, has been fairly good. A guy I smoked with, a classmate, and a fairly decent nice guy committed suicide last week, Monday I believe . His name was George. I feel really bad for him, and everyone who knew him. He shouldn't have died... R.I.P George Friesen 7/15/2013. I have a job; I had two jobs for a while so I almost always have money. My jobs are babysitting this little girl Dakota, and it is hell. Serious hell. My other job was working as a caretaker for Mary Ann (a lady who had a stroke and couldn't use her left arm). Overall, the job with Mary Ann payed well, and I liked it.

I miss my friends though, me and Rachel got in a fight and she called me a whore and such. Its gotten to me, I know I am. She's right. I am a whore and I'm ugly, but why does she have to remind me? She is also dating Gage, a ex of mine. I cheated on him. Not on purpose but it still counts. I had sex with a guy, he wouldn't take no for an answer. I told Gage right away, but it still doesn't justify it. I haven't really talked to Austin, Kellin, or Becca all summer :c I miss them terribly.

Anywhore, it's 4:01 I have work at 7. I get up at 6, and work all the way to 5. It's hell but I need the money, so I better get SOME sleep. Good night <3