A few weeks ago things took a turn for the worst. Nick and me had our worst fight ever, it lasted a week or so, and was the worse thing imaginable. He said he had found someone else, and that I should get over him, I begged him to take me back and he wouldn't. His reason was justified, although he still feels like he was being a dick. I was a mess that week, I cried constantly; everywhere. I cried at Walmart, shopping, dinner, before going to bed, when I showered, when I talked to Nick, at work, at home, so it was really bad. I had to schedule a therapy appointment early because the night before I tried to kill myself. I slit my wrist, and still have a huge blood stain in my mattress. I was sick for the next two days from loss of blood. Anyway we are good now and that is all that matters <3
The summer overall, has been fairly good. A guy I smoked with, a classmate, and a fairly decent nice guy committed suicide last week, Monday I believe . His name was George. I feel really bad for him, and everyone who knew him. He shouldn't have died... R.I.P George Friesen 7/15/2013. I have a job; I had two jobs for a while so I almost always have money. My jobs are babysitting this little girl Dakota, and it is hell. Serious hell. My other job was working as a caretaker for Mary Ann (a lady who had a stroke and couldn't use her left arm). Overall, the job with Mary Ann payed well, and I liked it.
I miss my friends though, me and Rachel got in a fight and she called me a whore and such. Its gotten to me, I know I am. She's right. I am a whore and I'm ugly, but why does she have to remind me? She is also dating Gage, a ex of mine. I cheated on him. Not on purpose but it still counts. I had sex with a guy, he wouldn't take no for an answer. I told Gage right away, but it still doesn't justify it. I haven't really talked to Austin, Kellin, or Becca all summer :c I miss them terribly.
Anywhore, it's 4:01 I have work at 7. I get up at 6, and work all the way to 5. It's hell but I need the money, so I better get SOME sleep. Good night <3
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