10/13/2013

I am so tired of being used. I was used twice this weekend by two girls. One (Taitlynn) because her girlfriend is cheating on her; she ended up cuddling with me, I was too tired to even move. I never sleep anymore. The other girl (Myranda)  just was lonely and later told me "Hopefully I will have a boyfriend on Monday..." She kissed me three times, we fucked, and was cuddling with me. I just shouldn't have feelings. Not to mention Becca kissed me this weekend too. I'm so tired of it. I miss him.... but he's gone. 100% gone.... and I still cry just thinking about it. I am just a stupid pathetic fuck.Can I please just fucking kill myself? NO ONE CARES, AND I KNOW IT! I'M TIRED OF THIS!!!!! THE LIES, HIM HAUNTING MY THOUGHTS! WHY DO I DESERVE THIS?

I know I hurt him... and I wish I could change it. I really do. But I can't...

I'm back to where I started....

A pathetic, ugly, stupid, fuckup.

 

The Hardest Part is Forgetting Those Who Swore to Never Forget 

I love this song.